Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Some personal news...

Hey everyone! I usually don't to get to detailed in my personal life, with only tid bits of info. Today I'm gonna share something that's really on my mind.

I was planning on doing Wednesday Wish List as usual but this morning at 6:30 we got a phone call. My Great Grandma was in the hospital. I was very close to her. At the hospital we were told she was in the ICU and had a tube down her throat. That alone was upsetting because she is 90 and has signed a DNR (meaning don't try to safe her life if its her time).

Finally after hours of waiting in the waiting room we were told she has a staph infection, that she was not breathing on her own at all, and had very low blood pressure. Her daughter, who is not my aunt. told me I couldn't see her. I wasn't having that so I was allowed in. To see her I had to wear a gown and gloves.

I held her hand and told her I loved her, that it would all be okay. I have never had to say goodbye, never had the chance. I must say that was the hardest thing to do. It is now up to her daughter on when to turn off the machines keeping her alive.

Happy new year to me...

15 comments:

Shalonda said...

Oh no!  I am so sorry to hear your sad news.  I will keep you and your family in my prayers. 

stargirlreads said...

Thanks so much

TruBlu93 said...

Oh my gosh. That is so awful. I've never been in such a situation so I can't even imagine what you're going through right now. I'm really sorry.

=)
TruBlu

stargirlreads said...

Thank you. My parents are taking my sister say good bye but I'm just to drained

Lauren said...

I'm so sorry. I remember when my grandmother died on Christmas Eve a few years back. I was pretty close to her. So, when I heard the news I was crying and so distraught. It was so not a good way to spend Christmas.

stargirlreads said...

No its not for sure. I'm sorry for your loss too. My great grandma is a stubborn ***** so I keep hoping she'll pull through but after 90 years your heart just can keep working

anotherpageisused said...

I so sorry sweetie.
Even thought I already knew about this I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry and that I'm still always here for you to talk to whenever you need me.
I love you.

Lexi <3

stargirlreads said...

Thanks lex. That means a lot

Laina said...

Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. :( If you want to talk, I'm totally here.

stargirlreads said...

Thanks laina. Its my day for hospital duty. no new reviews

Laina said...

No, that's perfectly understandable. No one's expecting you to do them, not at a time like this.

Lenore said...

Oh no! Sorry to hear that. I hope she will pull through.

stargirlreads said...

I just am takin a lil break from duty. Her breathing is slowing. The end is near.

Laina said...

:( I'm so sorry, honey, I really am.

stargirlreads said...

its okay. It'll hopefully end tonight